Things in TTC world were weird over the past two weeks. To make a long story short, my cycle was 36 full days, which had me all kinds of confused and worried. I had taken 3 hpts over 5 days and they were all negative, so I was confused as to why my new cycle hadn't reared its ugly head. Then I began to worry that something was wrong. My husband was my calm in my sea of emotional craziness.
Finally on CD35 I decided to call our fertility doctor to let them know that something was off, and that my cycle never runs this long. Wouldn't you know it..the next morning I go in and boom, my new cycle starts...crazy. They still checked and everything is on the up and up.
So, new cycle means no pregnancy in December. I am currently on CD5 of our 6th month TTC. We are now past the "try it the old-fashioned way" step and on to the you need "medical help" step. This is bitter sweet for me. A part of me feels like I'm failing at something by not being able to conceive like most people, heck, like I did 14 years ago. Then a bigger part of me thanks God that he has created smart people to develop this technology to help us through the process.
I have 100% faith that we will conceive, whether natural or through help. I think I get in trouble with myself and God when I start asking the question, "Why not now, Lord." I don't want to rush God's timing, so I need to stay in some constant prayer on this.
So, on next Monday, the 14th (CD11) we go back to the doctor so he can see how my egg sack and uterine lining are developing for the month and try to determine an approximate date of my expected ovulation. They will also have me monitoring ovulation with their tests, so I can get my definite 24 hour peak and head back to the doctor for the IUI procedure.
It would be great if this first round of IUI worked, but I'm emotionally preparing myself just in case it doesn't. I have read that some women go through 3 or 4 rounds before it takes. We are prepared to do that.
Well, that's it for now! I'll let you know how the doctor visit goes next week.
~ Blissfully Yours